It's easy, we all falter.

Dreams.
A dream can be defined as a state of mind marked by abstraction or release from reality.
And though where I want to go right now could be nothing more than a dream,
nothing more than a mere abstract of the innocent mind in all of us,
nothing more than a beautiful release from the painful reality that we all live in,
a dream could still come true, am i not right?
So I hope, god willing, for this dream to come true.
And only then can I say that all this while, it was a premonition rather than a dream,
and only then can I be content, with what I would have, with what I would get.

Maybe not now, perhaps maybe later? hah I certainly hope so.

As memory seeps through my veins.

I can't think straight anymore. All I want is for this problem to go away. I already know what the problem is but with all the ignoring I'm getting, I don't get the room I need to explain myself. I don't know who to go to. And I don't know what i can and what i cannot do. I want to talk to them, I want to explain myself, I want to make them know that I'm willing to apoligize, that I'm willing to compromise, that I'm willing to give in, that I'm willing to sacrifice all of this to make things right. I certainly don't want anything to get in between our friendship. Please, hear me out, just this once.


I'm sorry.

The shadows closely run.

Many great stories,
many great sagas,
great tales,
of fiction and of what actually happened,
of the living and the departed,
of what's obvious and what's not,
begin in the most innocent way possible,
but the end result often differs,
some end great,
some end badly,
some just don't end at all.

My story has begun,
and as innocent and as unsuspecting as it may be,





I just want it to have a goodgreat ending.

In the quiet time of evening, when the clouds gather and let loose.

Things change,
people change.
But the things they change are always insignificant things.
They are the things that we really couldn't care less, and that we just couldn't bother if it was even there in the first place.
Sometimes the things that they change are the things that you never wanted change in.
But the things that really matter, the things that really would bother people, almost always, never change.
At often times, it gets worse.
But this is what life is.
This is what we get by, day by day.
And all we can do, is to just pray.
Hope is simply not enough anymore.


Well I just felt like letting that out. Thought about that the whole way back from college while driving in the rain. Aha, I always get thoughts like that while driving in that ambience.

Brazilian Grand Prix 2008, Formula 1 at its finest.

69/71 VETTEL HAS OVERTAKEN HAMILTON!!!

69/71 Glock in fourth is on slicks though!!! But Hamilton needs to find a place....

71/71 FINAL LAP - HAMILTON NEEDS A PLACE - HE NEEDS A PLACE!!!

71/71 MASSA IS GOING TO WIN THE RACE - Hamilton is sixth!!

71/71 GLOCK HAS FADED - GLOCK HAS FADED

END HAMILTON HAS FINISHED FIFTH - HE HAS OVERTAKEN GLOCK - The Ferrari camp think they have won it but they are wrong - HAMILTON IS THE WORLD CHAMPION.

Such drama over just 2 laps of the race. Its good for the sport, no doubt. Fun to watch. But all I have to say about it is

FCK TOYOTA. FCK HAMILTON. FCK GLOCK. FCK MCLAREN MERCEDES.

Tomorrow's rain, will wash the stain away.

There's this awkwardness that I feel, myself, alone, that the others don't feel.
There's that feeling when you know there's something wrong, but you can't comprehend what it is.
There's also that self-blame feeling thinking I'm responsible for things.
There's that cautious feeling thinking anything wrong I do or say could result in something bad happening.


There's also hope, and optimism, for it all to be normal again and for it to be left in the gallows of my deepest, darkest memories.

When the west wind moves.

Najee just started blogging, and he's putting a lot of acceptable nonsense in it. Its funny though. Aha at least he's got something to keep him at home longer.

I don't think it's worth mentioning the fact that I haven't been blogging for a very very long time. I know I'm more than capable to, but heck, I just didn't bother. But now, I just thought that I could, maybe, just maybe put more effort into this now. ;p

It's funny how my last post became so infamous. But that resolution I made in it, was really fulfilled. Well, there are times when I just get down and down about stuff, but now the reasons are more acceptable. Hah. So it's safe to say, I probably only get emo about 20% of the time. Pretty normal no? aha.

Well, a lot of time passed us by since then. And a lot of things happened. Everything from life-threatening crashes to downfalls with the closest of friends happened. It has been a little more subtle lately, and I guess hope it would stay like this. I guess i can speak on behalf of everybody that we're all tired of fallouts and downfalls happening so much more than the average in our circle. Get it to stay like this, have a chillin good time. Enjoy it. Savour it.

Kembara's back. Gold colour, new bigger rims. Pictures should come soon (:

Raya has been great this year. I amassed a mini-fortune from it. I haven't quite spent it though. I have bigger plans with that money. Maybe make myself richer? aha, let's just hope it'll happen shall we.

Don't know what to type anymore. For now, I just want to wait and see if I can stay doing this. Not gonna spread the word out though. Not looking for publicity here, just a place to let out stuff. Hah. Till the next post!

Oh, to you, I'm smiling (:

;Here's to the nights we felt alive.